I love them cookies

So I've been going out.. and all. :D same ol same ol, swimming, mamaking bitching session with sarah, watched daybreakers with the boys, shaun couldn't stand the show and ended up not sleeping. I however laughed at the part where the vampire blew up. *cackles* ahh :( too sadistic.


Went to pool party with shuni, was pretty fun and tiring :D. Really lazy to type things down. Going to Segi;s open day at saturday though am not very enthu about it.


Dad and mom went to old college to meet with lec, Dad actually teared when he saw the letter I wrote to lec, mom said he finally realized that he was pressuring me too much and the sufferings I've been going through. He didn't say anything when he came home, but he gave me a kiss on the forehead.


I almost cried when he did. The relief I felt was overwhelming. I'm really glad that he finally realized the pain I was going through. I think we're gonna be ok.


I'm so lazy to blog, I think ill do it when I don't feel as lazy -_- I don't know how can people make those long ass entries, I mean for stories its cool since you have the whole story line down, and know what you want the readers to feel when your writing it, but I guess its harder when your writing down your own personal life. You would'nt know what reaction to get. xD


I shall leave you people with a simple poem, ones that we all took in F5 eng lit. By Robert Frost, I think I can relate to his poem the most when it came to deciding what course I would take. Its one of my favorite poems, since its all about being different, and choosing a less taken path.

The Road Not Taken - by Robert frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both And be one traveler, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth; Then took the other, as just as fair, And having perhaps the better claim Because it was grassy and wanted wear, Though as for that the passing there Had worn them really about the same, And both that morning equally lay In leaves no step had trodden black. Oh, I marked the first for another day! Yet knowing how way leads on to way I doubted if I should ever come back. I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I, I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference.

Random Gag of the Week #3: Touhou Project: Yukari & Reimu

Today's random gag: Touhou Project. Featuring Reimu and Yukari.

- Bucket

C is for Kuki, It's Good Enough for Me.

So like yea, C is for Kuki, it's good enough for me 8D.

Anyways.

Things have been hectic for me lately. So many assignments to rush. Still, I had fun doing my assignments since it's a group project. Not to mention that my group members are epic. They're nice, friendly, funny, and sometimes noisy. It's always fun hanging out with them.

Woke up around 10.30 am today. I don't have any classes but I had to go to college for my group assignment meeting. Turns out that later around 11.45 am, one of my member called because she couldn't find any parking in college so we ended up going to this Taiwanese food shop. They have really great food and there's also internet service here. My other 2 members had their lunch while I made myself busy by reading manga since I didn't have any appetite to eat. After lunch, we started our discussion.

During our discussion, one of my teammate, Annie, talked a wee bit too fast and my face was all blank. I just stared at her with a blank expression for a good 5 minutes or so and nodded my head stupidly. She was like, "Eh Meliza, you okay? You look so blur wei." My other teammate, Lee Fong, giggled because I look really funny with a blank expression. My face looked like this:

D: I was damn sleepy because I didn't get enough sleep. That's why I was all blur blur during our discussion. But when Annie and Lee Fong suddenly talked about anime... LOL, my sleepiness flew out of the window immediately. 8D.

Well, I guess that's all. I can't really think straight now because I'm so goddamn sleepy.

... C IS FOR KUKI~ IT'S GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME~ 8D

- Bucket

Don't cry love, just hold onto me.

Ohiiiiiiii :3 So like, I'm a total bum now. But its k I still have a life going on. Been kinda lazy to blog on what happened these days, but I shall upload pics now! :D we want more readers :( both Bucket and I, so SPREAD THIS BLOG AROUND LIKE LITTLE BACTERIA :D DO IT DO IT DO IT.


Anyways, so like, wah you know when something happens to your comp so often you get use to it but also frustrated? Especially with older things that you kinda wanna replace it but can't cause it holds a dear annoying string in your heart? Well thats me and my PC, it was handed down from Korkor to me, a really good PC o-o but its like 5 years old, and knowing how technology is rapidly changing and 5 years is like damn outta date and I want a new laptop so bad -_- *spoilt* but I love love love LOVE this Pc. Like seriously. But here's the thing. Its really really buggy, I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY. I mean it restarts at the slightest of provocation and Blue screens like madness eventhough I DONT DO ANYTHING TO IT D: and Don keeps insisting that I've done something Stupid to it to spoil it WHICH I HAVEN'T. All my friends say I DL porn or watch porn on it WHICH I DONT KNNCCB GO DIE LA I HAVE MORE productive things to do then watch porn! 


Ainin the super smart scholar, she watches porn for relief. LOLJK Hamsapface





But going back to my computer.. it died yesterday. Like literally after a power trip happened it went windows system was corrupted balblabla which meant that I had to reformat it AGAIN, which i just did before like, 3 weeks ago. Oman that pissed me off -_- but then again I'm already so use to the routine of reformatting my comp it came second nature to me. I secretly think that Little brother's Maple story in my comp is causing all of these meltdowns


NABEH THE LITTLE MONSTER ACTUALLY USED MY CAM TO CAMWHORE HIMSELF WHEN HIS PLAYING MAPLE IN MY ROOM





But then again, I think he learn from me la, EH this was the time my comp was still being reformatted, I was reading too! But do we look alike 8D? 







Warcraft Trilogy  loaned from Kenneth.. Ahh good book good book.





And buncho re installation Cd's. Swear to god I will kill myself if I lose them.





Anyways, was out these days la, college hopping and all. Ainin came back from Perak so spent the days with her and the other loves :D Random pics!


Hock Wee and 3rd wife Ainin LOL.







LOL notice the guy behind me also has the same blank expression as I do?







Dawson and his snake T shirt....








Kawai so blur, the feller has no Facebook, WTF. We were all za-ing him going "Eh kawai THATS a damn nice picture wei! Lemmi Ta- Owait. you have no facebook. Loser." LOL all of us are peer pressuring him into getting facebook :(


The girls :D at night.





Nin Wee and Ivan.





Was at paramount eating nasi lemak when I decided to be a sadistic whore and went "Bang Nasi lemak daging manusia." Ivan stared at me for a good 5 min, and I will now forever be known to him as Carnivore. LOL. 10s headstart Ivan, thats all your getting. Omg my internet is damn shitty around 3-5am seriously, it keeps Dcing every 5 fucking seconds!


On skype with andrew now, talking bout life and shit. but shitty internet is making me mad. Told him we'd have to catch up tmr morning after i send monster to school :( Owell. Anyways Lyfe is guuuuuuuuud :D And I don't know what else to say cause my life is really boring :(. Anyways bye! Liz Liz if your reading this D: nigga post something!


xxx 


Pie

Bad Day is so Not Cool

I love my mom to death but... Because of something, I accidentally snapped at her yesterday. And I know it hurt her feelings badly since it made me cringe when I kept thinking back of what I've said to her. It hurts and I ended up crying because I never mean to snap at her and hurt her feelings.

So like yea, it all started when she called me yesterday, in the afternoon. She kept bringing up the topic that annoys me a lot, which is about me looking for a job. She kept on going on and on and due to the pressure of college assignments and some personal problems, I couldn't take it anymore and snapped at her. I told her to shut up and don't bring that up anymore and guess what? I ended the call abruptly.

I sat down and re-think about the conversation that I had with my mom. And I imagined myself being in her place. It hurts and I cried because I felt really bad.

Guess I'll call her later in the afternoon, after my classes. I need to apologize for what I've done.

Side note: Too many assignments can make you shit bricks and rocks. Seriously.

- Bucket

Looking Hot

Was suppose to update this yesterday, but I got tired and fell asleep.


Simple day really, same ol me running away from dad. Went out with Sarah on Wednesday to HELP and hung around, saw shuni for a moment but she was kinda in distress and brushed me off. Was kinda ticked at her for doing so, but I guess she really had some issues to deal with. Sarah went to this psychology thing.. unfortunately not my forte ;3 In the end spent some time in the library looking up random books and reading Warcraft that ken loaned to me. Got me thinking as well.


Went around looking at the course they offered and was pretty lethargic about it, there wasn't much that HELP could provide me in Mass com wise, though they did give a pretty solid foundation program. -_- not to mention its much closer to home *god i hate commutes* Went to catch a bus home and bumped into Malini and the others, they seemed busy enough so it was just simple greetings. The sun was so obscenely hot I wanted to melt and die.


After waiting abit me and sarah got frustrated and decided to hail a cab home with her cousin, his damn cute and blur wei, I didn't even know it was her cousin, though I've seen him around. CURSE PHOTOBUCKET AND ITS HORRIBLE UPLOADING THING. NIABUU, has pictures to upload but unfortunately you won't be able to see them :( Anyone recommend a new hosting website for pics? 


Went swimming for the rest of the day and god the water was so refreshing, it was so nice having a cool dip in the pool in the hot weather. Rah's mom raged so she couldn't head for dinner.


She doesn't look very happy no?


Went for dinner with the guys and home to bed, was exhausted so slept pretty early. Oh and Belated congratulations to Ken for passing your driving test <3 your a man now. HEHE.


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Thursday,


Was suppose to be a hectic day, yet it ended up lazy. Went out for breakkie with Sarah and the newly returned Nini <3 all the way back from godknowswhere had a good time laughing and catching up, as well as me updating her on my situation. Funny how even after a long period of absence, it seemed only yesterday we were all sitting in the mamak, when I was 17. 15. 14. 13... How time flies, sometimes I just feel as though no matter how much I try to catch it, or to make sense of things, it just slips through my hand like sand.

Walked Smelly to 1u for his piano class at 12 only to find that it got postponed to 2, got invited out from Shuni to have dinner at 12 itself but was too damn lazy to walk back and forth since they didn't wanna pick me up. -_- stayed home and used the comp for hours on end. Finally going out with nini, ivan, munz , hockwee, Z yun, caymen for dinner. 


Was suppose to go to ivan's place for poker but queen was kinda annoyed so decided to stay home,-_- i should have just annoyed her more and continued out. King had caught me Finally after all of these days of avoiding him, I swear I had almost vomited my heart out when I saw him, I bet I looked like a trapped mongrel by the judge of my horror filled face. Though he seemed calmed enough and said he would speak to me tomorrow.........


OHEY ANY PLANS?


*Morning gym with nin and rah, afternoon movie with munz and nin... evening plans yet to unfold.*


shitbrix with the amount of food I'm eating I'm gonna gain all the weight I lost from stress back.


NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO


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Random Rant, don't you just hate "friends?"

You know, the type who would always give a willing smile and a friendly hi. But thats about it. I don't know, but I've always feared loosing my friends, sometimes so deep that it haunts me when I sleep. Even now when I'm away from rah for more then 2 weeks i get nightmares of her and I arguing. I hate that they look for me when they need things, but when I'm in pain, when I'm in need, they don't notice, nor do they give a damn to give me a call.


I have been going through alot of things these weeks, and I've had plenty of sleepless nights. Though some friends would know better then others. I feel so empty inside, when they drop me texts asking "hey are you ok" and I reply. "yea I'm good"


I haven't been going to college for awhile, do you really think "I'm good?"


They didn't want to know further than that, they satisfied themselves by saying that. Having made the effort to "ask if a friend is in pain"


Bah, I don't need friends like these. I have my real ones.

Human Brain

Human brain is the most outstanding object in the world.

It functions 24 hours a day, 365 days a year.

It functions right from the time we are born,

and stops only when we enter the examination hall.

- Bucket

Random Gag of the Week #2: Vampire

Random gag of the week #2: Vampire. Featuring Iris (starring), Khim, Liz and Sabrina. Click on the image for full view.

- Bucket

God Don't you hate it when it stinks?

I hate getting nightmares. I really really hate getting nightmares. The only thing I hate more then getting nightmares are actual real life drama. Which is pretty bad as well. 

Went to Utar yesterday with Kent and Liz, Kenneth dropped out last minute since he was too tired, it was a pretty good experience going to a different college and actually listening to the open day speeches, I never really had the chance when dad forced me in Kdu. All in all it was an enjoyable day save for some things. 

Mom actually got lost while driving towards the college, Laughed at her for being so cute. Didn't really take pictures cause I was too lazy to, went to KLCC for the fun of it and saw my childhood park, it was nice being there looking at the place where I use to go alot when I was a kid with my family and played around. Weather was bloody hot and it was so awesome when it rained. Sang like a girl on the shrooms without much of a care :D. 

Liz told Kent and I to go ahead since she needed to stay to buy some stuff, so we headed back to my place, had dinner at homst before sending the little bastard to the train station. 

Slept pretty early yesterday, woke up pretty early too. Didn't have the mood to go out, and just stayed at home, contemplating to go to college or not. I don't really want to step foot into that college anymore, but it Is for my mom's sake. Guess I'll have to suck it up and go in there tomorrow... or one day before the dean calls and tells dad I've been skipping for so long. 

Had 2 nightmares today, one of myself arguing with my mom for a pretty weird thing and another of myself arguing with my dad. -_- it was bitter and I woke up resenting to speak to father even more. Someone told me that I was bipolar once, and I completely agree. I can be So happy one moment, and really upset the next. I'm not sure why myself, I guess its probably from thinking too much on some details best left forgotten. I just wanna strangle everyone around me sometimes, and sometimes I feel on top of  the world. Bahh... I'm too lazy to go into details.

Another day maybe.

Rage

I fucking hate classmates who keep asking me the same thing over and over again. My goodness. It's like as if they never attended any of the classes conducted. Jeebus, they never missed any of the lessons yet they still kept pestering me about what the lecturer taught us.

Seriously, fuck them very much. They expect me to remember every single thing that our lecturer taught us. And if I can't remember SOME of it, they'll go rage and bitch at me.

My irritation level: [llllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll]lll

- Bucket